He was at a family dinner tonight, at his aunt and uncle’s house. I haven’t heard from him since 6.40pm

My phone is on silent so my husband doesn’t hear me getting texts. I have been checking it every few minutes to see if he has sent me another text. It’s like an addiction. That’s probably a very accurate description actually. I’m addicted to him. If I’m not texting him I’m thinking about him. I dream about him, about what it would be like to be together. Sad isn’t it?

There are texts from him that I would very much like to save, like the text he sent the other night saying “you know I love you ay?”. He loves me . He’s told me that before over the years but I always think that in the silences between us that things change. Apparently they don’t though. He still loves me. Despite the fact his wife is due to have his baby any day now. Her due date is next weekend.

I’m trying not to think about THAT.

God, I love that man. I don’t think I will be hearing from him again tonight. Guess I have to wait till morning.

xoxo Lexie