Yeah, you know how I said I was trying not to think about the arrival of the baby?

It happened that night! Their baby boy was born at about 10pm and I found out 45 mins later one of the first people I think.

I am happy for him, I really am it’s an amazing feeling looking at your baby and knowing you created him. I can’t handle hearing about the happy little family from my MIL though. I had to grit my teeth last night as she filled in all the details that I didn’t know plus way more that I really didn’t want to know.

I’m playing the happy friend but it’s hard, very hard. So much harder than seeing him get married.

He has said that he is still thinking about me despite everything else that is going on and he texts me when he gets home each night so that’s something

Had the most amazing text sex yesterday over the course of the afternoon naughty and very nice!

We’re trying to tee up a way of seeing each other. I need to touch him, feel him, hold hold him.